Starting fresh

So my life is pretty awesome..i cut facebook out of the picture and now i'm happy as a clam with my man and pretty ecstatic about school coming up. I still am a little upset about the Gdaddy situation but I know he is in a better place and things are all good. So i'm pretty stoked about starting a new and a fresh. so yeahh

ill write more when i'm inspired

Gdaddy

I love you and you are the only Gdaddy I will ever have. I miss you daily and every second is harder. I hate not having you here. We need you. miss you alot gdaddy. you were a great man. i'll see you soon.

WHAT?!

Oh my lord I hate when people are so wishy washy with me. I know that I talk alot and I know that I may be too honest and too blunt but if you care about me like you say than wouldnt it not bother you that bad good golly mr man why in the world are you being so UHHHHHH! idk what i'm suppose to do or how i'm suppose to react/act to this..i feel like the way i act is rude but its just bc i'm shutting down. uhhh its killin me...well i just needed to get it out i guess..boooooooo this nonsense.

Who says?

RIght now I'm procrastinating..i really should be cleaning up my room but i'm writing on my blog and just chilling..i'm about to clean though i just wanna get stuff on my mind a bit..well i am pretty happy right now i'm going to see my lovely man today and hang with the fam for Papa's birthday. then i have work tomorrow...butttttt i am going to see harry potter with him on thursday night and i was thinking about it yesterday we have been "together" for about two months now..i really like it. i dont care that we arent like bf gf or whatever bc people know we are like together or whatever..i mean i'm with him all the time for crying out loud. i mean yes at times it bothers me bc i feel like we need to jump to that next step but then another part of me is like why? idk being torn in two directions but at the end of the day i get a goodnight babe and a kiss goodbye..and i'm happy. i know he cares about me and i know its gonna work out just fine.

oh and on a random note. i hate pimples! i have been breaking out bad and i have tried everything i've been washing my face with all kinds of face wash..idk what to do. i guess i'll just keep washing it..and i think it might be because i'm so nervous about school coming up so soon! ahhhh

well i guess i'm gonna go clean considering i need clothes for tonight haha...well byeeee

I love you like a love song baby

pretty much the happiest i've ever been...yeah dang straight..friend lauren...she is pretty pissed at me but hey i tried to talk to her and hang again she shut ME down and then said it was my fault bc of some boy...well i can't please everyone and considering the past her and i have...yeah i'm not too worried about it whatever with that though you know..i'm still happy as a clam..well yay peace :)

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askjaowihgnksfe

ahhhh just ended the night with a "if you will put up with me...i'd really appreciate it" GAH i really like him..we have our awkward nights..but i love it bc it makes our relationship real..he makes me so dang happy, my heart skips a beat or two when i'm with him..gotta love a man that keeps a smile on your face..good man good man..i know i'm not exactly doing this grammatically correct but idc i'm just so dang happy right now i can't type correctly. i'm just happy..i am thinking about deleting my facebook soon...maybe..idk we'll see..i'm pretty happy with everything i got right now and i'm rarely on fb..i think i'm gonna take photos tomorrow...PHOTO SHOOT! haha well i'm in the mood to dance around and scream giggly into a pillow..just too happy for words...could be the womanly week hormones but idc i'm just happy..and ACC you are def a keeper mr. man..:)

new outlook

So i'm up talking to this new guy..we've been talking now for about a month maybe a little over a month and well this guy has pretty much turned my whole outlook on things around..I feel like my mood is different I feel like everything is different...in a good way. he isn't my typical type of guy but I think thats why I like him so dang much :) We may pick on each other alot but I REALLY dont care because well he makes me the happiest I've been in a long time. I really dont know what it is..we arent even dating and well i think there is a future with him..even though i'm leaving in a month and some change i feel like he will be there for me and he wont leave me..he actually thinks i'm gonna leave him but yeah thats not gonna happen. ahh i just can't believe that this is happening to me..i'm happy, with a guy that isnt a total jerk..there is NO drama and well life is just dandy right now...minus my job of course because well...that just sucks major butt hole.