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ahhhh just ended the night with a "if you will put up with me...i'd really appreciate it" GAH i really like him..we have our awkward nights..but i love it bc it makes our relationship real..he makes me so dang happy, my heart skips a beat or two when i'm with him..gotta love a man that keeps a smile on your face..good man good man..i know i'm not exactly doing this grammatically correct but idc i'm just so dang happy right now i can't type correctly. i'm just happy..i am thinking about deleting my facebook soon...maybe..idk we'll see..i'm pretty happy with everything i got right now and i'm rarely on fb..i think i'm gonna take photos tomorrow...PHOTO SHOOT! haha well i'm in the mood to dance around and scream giggly into a pillow..just too happy for words...could be the womanly week hormones but idc i'm just happy..and ACC you are def a keeper mr. man..:)

new outlook

So i'm up talking to this new guy..we've been talking now for about a month maybe a little over a month and well this guy has pretty much turned my whole outlook on things around..I feel like my mood is different I feel like everything is different...in a good way. he isn't my typical type of guy but I think thats why I like him so dang much :) We may pick on each other alot but I REALLY dont care because well he makes me the happiest I've been in a long time. I really dont know what it is..we arent even dating and well i think there is a future with him..even though i'm leaving in a month and some change i feel like he will be there for me and he wont leave me..he actually thinks i'm gonna leave him but yeah thats not gonna happen. ahh i just can't believe that this is happening to me..i'm happy, with a guy that isnt a total jerk..there is NO drama and well life is just dandy right now...minus my job of course because well...that just sucks major butt hole.

Who to choose?

So lately I'm in a pickle, I have two great guys that like me and I have to chose one. Choice number A has a past with me and is a really sweet guy but it never works when we try. Anddd choice B is a new guy that I have been hanging out with lately..well its pretty hard but I really think I might chose B just because of how we are when we are together..idk its one of those things that i have to sit and ponder about for a while. Well i'm gettin ready to go to choice b's baseball game :) then i guess go out to dinner or whatever. we'll see. well i'm off to prettify myself :P

toodles ;)

My love for you is so big

I am the happiest girl in the world :) I am so happy with where I am at and what is going on in my life. I feel great..idk what it is..i guess it is because i'm single but i'm happy with someone and there are no strings..idk its just pretty good right now..thats all i gotta say.

Lets do us :)

Today hasn't been that great until about like 10 minutes ago whenever Andrew texted me and well he pretty much turns my frown upside down with every little smiley he sends :). I know its corny but I really like him. I've got a kindergarten crush on this boy. And I'm going to see him Saturday and oh buddy I can't wait. I haven't seen this boy in like a year. Yeah thats a while. Every time we see each other its like BAM right back were I started. I have the butterflies and the blushing cheeks and well the silly smile on my face that doesn't go away when I'm with him. My cheeks start to hurt I smile so much when I'm with him or talking to him. I don't care what we do together as long as we are together because he makes me so happy. I am so nervous and excited to go down on Saturday. I don't know what is gonna happen when I see him. I'm gonna have like a minor heart attack or my heart may skip a beat or beat too fast I might pass out. Who knows. I mean I've seen him on skype dates and stuff but its not like real life you know? And he lets me do me. Like I can do my thing because he knows at the end of the day I'm the one telling him goodnight with a little heart at the end. I don't exactly know what it is about him that makes me so happy. I mean yes I have those things that I can list off the top of my head that are just so adorable, but there is an aspect of him that I can't describe and that is the one thing that just makes me happy. Well that is my rant about my little attraction to Andrew..yeahh we'll see where it goes.