We're gonna take a boat to the end of the world.

I'm sitting in class listening to Dave Matthews Band, its something that goes with my mood I guess. I'm in a sorta sad just blah mood. I am worried for Zack and Thomas and Mr. Brad. I hope everything is okay and that he has overcome it again. I just want everything to be okay. Today I have a track meet and all this being on my mind and the pressure of being captain and Coach Hutch not being here is just a lot to have on my shoulders. I mean half the team hates me because they think I'm just being a bad word and the power has rushed to my head when really I'm just trying to make them better and us better as a team. It's just a lot. I hope that today everything goes well and that nothing worst happens. I am just going to try and focus on the positive today and not think about everything and just worry about me. I am going to work on this new project I got in Zoology and then during the next to blocks I will focus on the meet and get ready for that. It is going to be one of the longest Wednesdays of my life. I really need a good hug and just some words of encouragement. I just wish that I had Thomas here because he understands where I'm coming from and he isn't here. :( And it's like with all this stuff going on right now I'm on like thin ice just waiting for someone to say something or do something and I just break down just blow up on someone. I hope God keeps me in check and keeps my heart and mind at ease. It'll be a long day.

Kelli