I'm sorry

I am sorry that I'm a bad person, I'm sorry that I'm blunt and rude and loud. I don't mean to be the way I am. I know that I hurt you with the things that I say out of anger. I feel like a jerk, I know that I didn't mean it but I said it and I can't take it back. The song Back to December makes me cry and think about how I wish I could go back to that night and tell you no and to talk it out and take me back and just forget everything that we fought about and work it out. I'm sorry. I wish there was something I could say that was stronger than I'm sorry that meant how I felt. That could tell you what I really want to. I wish I could just express how I felt without crying and hurting you. I feel like anything I do to try and fix it literally takes me two thousand steps back. I wish like in the song I could go back and make it all right. I know that you love me and I love you right back. We have/had so many memories together. We have so much love for each other and it sucks to just leave it at this. I know it will eventually work out. But I wish I could just say sorry and I wish I could just go back fix it and everything be ok in the blink of an eye. I hate that I cry when I think about us because I'm not sad I'm hurt. All my music talks about how they feel about each other. And it just seems that all these songs represent everything between you and me. You have seen me through so much and I feel so safe with you and so myself and I just hate that I can't feel that way with anyone else. You are the only one I can be corny with the only one I can be a nerd or a loser with and I dont feel completely retarded. I miss all of it. I really just want to say I'm sorry for everything and that I love you to the moon and back. You will always be the apple to my pie.