What a day.

So much on my mind today. I feel that I get one step forward and then two steps back.
To the person who hurt me the most: I just hate going through these things without you here. I wish that I could just move on and be happy again. I really want to be happy. I can't get on my facebook without hurting, I can't listen to music, I can't just ride around. Everything has my mind wrapped around you. Everyone says it's gonna get easier. Everyone says I'm gonna find someone better. I feel like that day will come...after a lot of pain and tears. All my music reminds me of you, which sucks because music is suppose to be my safe haven. Well guess track is now. You hurt me, and you know what I don't even think you care. I feel like everything I said and did for you was a waste of my time. Everyone is trying to comfort me but you were the only one that could. And now I don't know if I will ever want to talk to you again. Life moves on everyone says well my life will move on. It will just be hard to look back on my senior year knowing I spent it all with you. I don't think you realize the pain you caused me, the hurt and the sorrow. Crying is the worst thing you could make me do and well you got all the tears out. I hate how hurt I am when I think about you. I hate knowing I will never get over the fact that you don't even care.
To the person who makes it all better: You are my best friend. You are the only guy in this world that I can depend on. You have all my trust and all my love. You have been in my life for along time now and I don't know what I'd do without you. You are always there, you have always been there. Even though we fight..alot I know that because you love me you will be there no matter how mad I make you. You are my best friend in the whole world. I hope we stay that way forever. Just kidding I know we will. I love you to death and I would do anything for you. You are the one that tries so hard to make me the happiest person in the world and make things better. You think beating everyone up that hurts me solves things it doesn't but I love you for it. I don't know what more I could say but thank you for being so good to me. I know I've hurt you but I'm glad we are past all of that and we are moving forward. I love you.
To my Savior that loves me more than anything: I am forever in your debt. I love you to the moon and back and I know you love me a million times more than that. You do so many things for me and I do such wrong. You love me for me I dont have to be anyone different for you, I dont have to try or anything. You love me for all my faults and I love you right back. You make life easier and sometimes harder but I know you do it to make me stronger I love you!

well thats about all i can get off my chest right now.