This is the stuff

Well today was good till Omar took my freaking water bottle and lied about it. Seriously who does that kind of thing? I ask where it is just be like here I took it ha ha. but no you had to lie about it and walk half way to the band room and not give it to me. Jerk move much...i think so. I am so tired and stressed and you doing that just piles it on more and more. uhhhh bad morning. and i'm so just frustrated with today and its rainy for the bigillionth day in a row. GAY!

whatever time to go read my bible for a bit to come down and just talk to God for a while.

bye.

Which road will you take?

This past weekend was DNOW weekend at my church. DNOW is were you have a weekend of fellowship and growth with your age group of girls or boys. So me being a high school senior girl I was with the high school girls. We stayed at The Toole's house. This was a very good weekend. I learned a ton from our speaker and praise leader Brian and Kelly. These guys are on fire for the lord and you can see it in their daily life. This weekend I was brought out on all of my tribulations that I need to work on and grow through. I have a lot of challenges faced before me. Right now I'm reading in Psalms and well it is exactly what I need to be reading. It keeps me encouraged and keeps me where I need to be in my walk. It is so encouraging to read in the morning and just see that God loves me and he made a path just for me. I am working on my patience and putting my intentions into actions and actually walking and letting people see Jesus in me.

A lot is at stake with this. I have already let him down a few times due to my temper and my impatience. This will be a tough task to fulfill however I know that with God on my side and Jeremy helping me it will be easier.

I hope everything works out pray for me.

Tumblr VS Blogger

Right now I'm trying to decide between Blogger my faithful blog or tumblr..right now I'm at a loss however tumblr is a little confusing. And it takes a while to load everything. I"m not sure I can take all this waiting...I'm impatient you know?

well i'm working on stuff for class right now and then gonna finish working on this stuff for Jonathan and Dianna. :)

Love to hear from all of you hoping you're well :)

Won't you Be MINE

Well a lot is on my mind right now so I thought why not write something long and over dramatic since I haven't in a while. I feel like everything is falling apart on my body. I keep braking or getting hurt and I really want to do good this season. So hopefully today the news that the doctor gives is all Thumbs UP. Other things on my mind is how music just triggers old memories and old thoughts. I just had like a flash back of Summer last year. Yeah Kevin Fogle I'm talking you. It was a great summer and ended horrid between us. It happens I guess. I just wish it wasn't so dang awkward every time I say you. I wish that all the music you showed me wouldn't make me miss hanging at your house all day and just lounging watching Weeds and eating home cooking. I kinda hate that we don't talk but you know I guess I'll just have to get over it...maybe one day things will go back to our good ole friendship. Then I hear the stupid music from like the past 6 months and well of course that brings memories of Wesley. He was my best friend, and now well we can't even see each other without getting a pain in the pit of our stomach. It stinks to know that all the times I put my whole self into something it just crashes and burns to the ground. Hopefully this time when I put my whole self and my mind into the relationship it won't burn. I don't think Jeremy will do that to me due to the fact that he is just so darn sweet. He would do anything to keep me happy but he does things that I wouldn't think about you know? Like with Kevin it was like we just had fun nothing we had to force or over think or try you know? and Wesley well we fought yes but at the end of the day we were laughing and just playing. There was no real effort and with Jeremy I feel like I'm trying so much more. Which isn't horrid but it's different and well I'm not so sure if I'm used to different. I guess it's all in God's plan for me, and well that's all I need right now is to follow that. I feel like the relationship I have with Jeremy will grow and glorify God. However I need to work on myself much more to get to where I need to be. I need to be more disciplined on reading the word and talking with God more. I mean don't get me wrong I talk to God and I read my bible...on Sunday and Wednesday. I just need to get more into the word..there is so much I wanna learn and I wanna be closer with God. Well I am pretty much tired of writing about all these stupid musical memories..thanks Music you let me down today..
well on a good note I got a sweet love note from Jeremy and he is just the sweetest bf in the whole world I can't wait to see where things go whether I have to work my tail off or just wing it. I think I love the boy :)

Are you serious?

Man lately I'm just so tired and so lazy about everything. I need to get to work and work on stuff. School is fine but like my body...i'm not healthy at all. I need to start to work my abs and stuff again and then I need to work how I can. Tomorrow I'll find out if I need surgery on my knee. Hopefully I don't need any type of surgery. Well I don't feel like blogging right now because I'm tired and somewhat ready to go to bed. I'll try and write soon. maybe..

<3

It's been a while.

Well lately I've been busy with some things and going back and forth from the doctor. I really wish that I hadn't triple jumped. It wasn't smart..oh well it happens. I'll find out Tuesday what the deal is. A lot is on my mind. I've been thinkin about a lot and just doing alot of stuff and it just sucks to think of what has happened. Oh well you know it has to happen sooner or later..might as well be sooner so that later i feel no pain..

what a waste of half a year. what a waste..

I thought I'd miss you...THAT"S A LIE!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

^ that explains how I feel and everything that's going on..so yeah thats about it.

Thinkin of you and the past.

Man I was looking at old pics and old people I used to be with and be friends with. Man...it doesn't even seem real. Like there is on in particular who i just can't even believe where we both are right now..how it doesn't seem like I spent two years on you. but you know what the heart wants the heart wants...well my heart sure as heck DOES NOT want that anymore. I miss how things used to be sometimes but I'm a better person now.Today has been one of those days that you just like have a memories day. Some of these memories are like recent and some are from years ago but I see how in the end I'm always falling back to who I'm with now. And I guess that shows that he's the one for me. It's a little of a shock too because I always thought I'd be with one person and ended with the other..however with the happiness that is forever overflowing with him I don't mind. Life goes on and where mine is headed I can't wait.

Thank you God for being the best heavenly father. The one that puts things in my way for me to learn and point me into the right direction. I apologize for the mistakes I've made but I'm working on changing it all.

Life is good and it's all thanks to God <3

Sticks and Bricks

Zack Bryant. You are an amazing person you have an amazing family behind you and you will make it through this. I love you and your family. I miss your dad as well. I am sorry you had to go through this so young. I love you and I am always here for you.
Today my friend Zack's dad died early this morning. He was too young but it was his time. God wanted him and God never makes mistakes. It's hard to face the facts and realize that he isn't there anymore. I don't know what I'm going to do when I go to see you. I will always be here for you Zack. I pray for you and your family often. I love all of you so much and I know you all loved him so much. I know you will make it through just rely on God and don't blame him. He loves you and would never do anything to hurt you. He does everything for a reason and I know its tough but it's just one of those things. I am sorry I don't know how you are doing this because I don't know how it is. I love you Mr. Brad. You were an amazing man, you were a great father and husband. You were loved by so many and will be remembered. I love you.

Today is gonna be a long day.

Through the fire and flames.

Today is the first big meet of the week. I'm worried about it because I strained my back/shoulder. It is hurting me bad right now so I'm icing it in first and then i'm gonna take a break from it during second block then I'm going home during third because I just don't feel like being here. I'm tired and hurting and I just wish that I could sleep all day today. Oh and on top of all this it might rain today which means there is a possibility of the meet today being cancelled..what kinda nonsense is that?! It must be a sign that we don't need to go against this big team. I hope it's not cancelled but at the same time I do because my shoulder is killing me. Anywho on a different note I got a dress yesterday from Peyton to try and see how it works out..well its red and long and Lisa and Lavoy like it so that's an added plus. I'm gonna have to try it on with everything and see how it all looks because last night I wasn't feeling it. This ice is making me numb. Which is good, and Jeremy is keeping me smiling so that's good as well. Man I am one hungry munchkin right now. I can't wait to leave and go eat at home. I'm starvinggggggggg! Lets see what else is on my mind.....oh my lordy I have WinterJam Friday :) Wesley is going (: and so is JEREMY :)) I can't wait to spend time with them. And then Saturday we are having a big BBQ for Thomas's sister who is coming into town. It'll be a good weekend. And I think Jer and I are gonna hang Sunday night which will be fun. Well I'm gonna go play tetris now. Have a great day :)

<3

For the first time

So today is over well for me at least. I'm pretty tired and sore from practice buttt it was a good practice. I'm ready for the meet Wednesday. I didnt get to see Robert today but thats ok. I'm just bummed he isn't coming to the meet on Wednesday. But life goes on. I am so drawing a blank on what I need to do. I should probably be studying. Or like doing my scholarship stuff but you know i'm a little tired and I can't even write on here I'm just blabbing about nothing..i can't spell either I've hit spell-check about a gillion times now. I'm too tired to finish this..good day however...good night.

BYEEEEEEEE

You gotta keep your head up!

Today is Monday. The start to a new week. Well this will be a very busy week. Today I had review in Precal and I have a test in there tomorrow and then we are working on a project in Zoology and well that is semi easy. And then Wednesday I have a track meet the official FIRST of the season :) I get butterflies just thinking about it. And then Thursday we have a test and then Friday we have STORY DAY in Zoology :). So yes I have a busy week. But I love busy weeks. It gives me something to do. :) So Kelsey and I have been talking about boys today and its been a pretty great day so far :) I love talking to her because we always end up laughing or singing :) Haha..right now I just felt like listening to some of my new music and just blog about everything that is gonna happen and everything that has been going on. So Kelsey and I are talking about moms and our relationships with boys and stuff. It is so good to have someone to talk to. I love talking to Kels about everything. It's so funny because we are open with each other about a lot. She just left for band and I'm stuck in here alone now. But anywhooooo...I am good I slept good and today has been a pretty great day so far. And after this I'm gonna probably write some notes to friends and then I'll be in the front office for a block then go see my long lost brother Robert :) and then I'll come back for practice. YAY. I really hope I do good today. I'm gonna work on turnovers and rollbacks. The two hardest things. It's gonna be a good week. I feel it. Well I'll probably post something later today or tonight about practice and everything. But yeah I'm off to go get crunk to my new CD :)

Have a blessed day. <3

We're gonna take a boat to the end of the world.

I'm sitting in class listening to Dave Matthews Band, its something that goes with my mood I guess. I'm in a sorta sad just blah mood. I am worried for Zack and Thomas and Mr. Brad. I hope everything is okay and that he has overcome it again. I just want everything to be okay. Today I have a track meet and all this being on my mind and the pressure of being captain and Coach Hutch not being here is just a lot to have on my shoulders. I mean half the team hates me because they think I'm just being a bad word and the power has rushed to my head when really I'm just trying to make them better and us better as a team. It's just a lot. I hope that today everything goes well and that nothing worst happens. I am just going to try and focus on the positive today and not think about everything and just worry about me. I am going to work on this new project I got in Zoology and then during the next to blocks I will focus on the meet and get ready for that. It is going to be one of the longest Wednesdays of my life. I really need a good hug and just some words of encouragement. I just wish that I had Thomas here because he understands where I'm coming from and he isn't here. :( And it's like with all this stuff going on right now I'm on like thin ice just waiting for someone to say something or do something and I just break down just blow up on someone. I hope God keeps me in check and keeps my heart and mind at ease. It'll be a long day.

Kelli

We're exactly where we are suppose to be.

Today has been a very long day. The end of my day didn't happen the way I thought it would. I got some distressing news and then the person who claims to be my "best friend" is being a pain in the rear. But whats new right? I am apparently always wrong and will always be. Whatever get over yourself dear. I didn't say anything that you told me because I'm not like that. I'm sure you probably said something but whatever I don't care I'm over the fact that everyone is mad or upset with me. I am happy with where I am and who I am. So :P on you. Oh my lanta why must high school have so much nonsense. Really I just can't wait to leave here and go to Charleston with Jeremy and have our life away from Lugoff. It'll be great. Other thing that is on my mind is Mr. Bryant. He is in the hospital right now and I am praying that he stays with us. He is such an amazing man and I just pray that he and his family stay strong and everything works out. I love the Bryant family and hate to see them hurting. Keep them in your prayers please. I know this is random but I have so many emotions going on right now. I just need to get them all out. I am so just upset. :(

I love you Mr. Brad.

Kelli.

You made a 100...no you didnt. :)

I am in second block right now AKA Zoology, I just finished a test that I totally ACED! And now i'm blogging so I can get this stupid writers block out of here. This nonsense is killing me. I'm trying to write my 800 word essay for this darn scholarship. And well right now it's not working. I have to write 500-800 words about the 6 shots I took, and well that's really hard because the criteria is very specific on what we need to do and well I can't concentrate. I really need help so I'm probably going to get my mommy or Jeremy to help me :). Ohhh yes to keep you updated on everything else that is going on, I have a lot.

Tomorrow is our first home track meet scrimmage thing. I don't have a clue who we are going against but I don't care I'm just excited to be competing again and getting back into the flow of things. I really want to run the 800 but I'm not sure exactly what will happen when I try out for it today. Lets see well track is working out pretty good so far just kinda busy working on my own to get better. And Jeremy and I are good. We are gonna hang out today and idk what we are gonna do but that's ok because I just have fun hanging out. And tomorrow we are going to get some food before the meet/scrimmage thing. AHHHH I still have writers block. But it is all good I have till the 11th and I already have all my pictures so we are good. Right now Devyn is sitting next to me and I told him I would add him in my blog and he said that I would just put a little line but I'm about to blow him up and show him that I will write a lot.

So I love you Devyn YOU are my BESTIE :) Your hugs are phenomenal and you always make my day better just by smiling at me. You are such a great friend and you're super silly which is just an added plus. We just made a heart with our hands you said it was precious then you me and kelsey made a triangle of hearts and it was great. Now we are talking about you shaving your head. And we are picking on the girl that sits behind us which is mean but it is still pretty comical. Well there is your paragraph for the day my dear :) Te AMO!!

Well I still have pretty bad writers block but oh well this was nice to just write for a while. Might write some tonight but I'm not sure. So hope you have a blessed day and God works miracles in your life :)

Kelli