Starting new

There is about a month until graduation I'm pretty stoked. I am newly single and trying to figure things out. I really am trying to be happier about all of this but its still sad because I lost my best friend. I mean he was just so not me. Like we didn't fight or anything but it was just we didn't agree on certain things. Or we didn't see eye to eye. I really didn't want to have to change myself to make him happy and that's how I felt. I love him to death and he will always be my best friend but I think that's all we can be because we are in two different worlds...or at least to me we are. I don't want people to think I'm heartless or he is heartless. Because it wasn't like a mean break up it was just a this isn't working out thing. Right now I feel like because I'm single I'm starting to like more people. I love knowing that I can like who I like and do what I like without boundaries. I can't wait to just hang with people and see where life takes me. I just need to live it up to where I am abiding rules and having fun. I just have so much I want to do before I graduate. :) Well I have to go work on my school stuff now so I'll post later.

Lazy Day

"Today I don't feel like doing anything" is the first line to the song Lazy Song by Bruno Mars. Don't we all wish we could just be lazy and "stare at the fan" well I sure do. Especially days when all I have on my mind is either the pain from practice or the pain from a fight with a friend today both those cases are on my shoulders...literally with the pain. Track has been taking a toll on my shoulders and ankles. I really tend to be getting hurt much more. And I just feel that if I work till the end of the season pushing myself I wont be able to walk across the graduation stage. But hey it is the price I pay to be the best I guess. I really just wish I could not do anything and have my lazy day. Well keep me in your prayers.

I'm Legal!

I can't believe that this time tomorrow I will be 18! It is so weird to think that I'll be an "adult" or at least considered by the government. I have no real big plans for the "big day" I will wake up and head to the doctor for my follow up appointment for my knee and then I will go out to lunch with my mom and then go home and get ready for the track meet. Nothing big at all. So I don't know. It hasn't really hit me that tomorrow is my birthday its not like one of those super exciting things you know. Like it'll be a normal day with just a wee bit more facebook notifications. I feel a little lost when it comes to talking about stuff...even though it has been a while since I've posted. I have missed posting lately but I have horrid connection at my house so I haven't been able to get on lately. And I feel like no one reads this so this is more for me to be like OK vent it out :P well on the home front Lisa aka my mother is doing well post surgery. And the fam is glad she is ok. We saw Jordan this past weekend..it was the usual good start bad finish. The love life is the same. Still with my sweetie Jeremy. We are going on two months on the 27th woop ;) Track is going good now that I can actually compete again. I feel like I've come back with a fire that is gonna get me to state or something close to it. Speaking of state...state is on the same day as my cousin Matt's wedding. CRAZYYYY so if I make it to state I'll be missing my cousins wedding. Well we are doing this stupid HSAP testing right now and so I'm stuck in first block till about 11. So no second block for me. Well I don't have much more to say. So I guess I'll see you all when I'M LEGAL!

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