Just another manic Monday

Well Happy Monday to all you bloggers :)

Today was a pretty regular Monday with a few random bits in it. I am in a good mood, first time I think I have said good besides fine or alright. Hmm, well any who I went to school as usual then I went and hung out with friends then came home and looked at beach houses for the summer with my mom. Then I jumped in the shower and got crunk to some Fefe and then I walked up in my room and realized how I had let it become a mess again. So I started cleaning. I just finished actually ahah. Oh well it looks nice now. New sheets and everything. :) Uhmm I am about to start homework but I thought I would just blog about my day. I am just listening to my itunes right now because my internet is pretty slow and this was the first thing I wanted to do. I'm addicted haha. I can't wait to see what God has in store for me this week. I have a ton to think about. One of the big things that is on my mind is whether I should go to Ecuador with the church for my "senior trip". I have wanted to leave the country but I don't know if I should go. I feel pressured more than passionate about it. My parents don't really care whether I go or not. I really want to just spend my senior summer doing my thing ya know. Oh well I'll pray about it and see where God takes me. What else is on my mind...well my walls are so bare and I got a ton of my pics printed but I don't want to put all of them up and then in like 3 months or so take them all down for college. Oh well I'll experiment. Other things on my mind are college obviously. I am so excited and I am going to be with so many friends one of them being Jeremy Simmons. I can't wait to go down and have our weekly lunch/coffee date haha. He will keep me in check :) My hair is getting so long alot of people told me that today. It was kinda weird because I don't think it's getting that long but must be. I really don't know if I wanna keep growing it or get it cut again. So many decisions!!!! haha Well I should probably get on my homework I have only done one problem and should probably do the rest. Ill chat up here later this week. Have a blessed week.

:)

Let's fly.

So I'm wondering why it is that you group of distinct few are such butt heads. I don't understand why when you do something wrong you put it on me. I look out for my friends and when you are in the wrong you should just man up and take what you dish. Oh and by the way next time dont be so crud because it's not attractive. I would really just love to push all of you out of my life so that I can just go my own way and you yours. I need to stick to God's path and you are pushin me in the wrong direction. Do you realize that? All of you butt heads are pushing me away and getting me into so much stuff I don't need. UHHHH You people are just drama and I can't wait to leave all of you in the dust.

You're still guilty.

I feel like a child. I however am not a child. I am almost 18 legal adult age. I can make my decisions for myself, I can protect myself and my heart. I would like to do things that I believe to be fun. I would like to hang with my friends and not be considered a "floater" or a "hoe bag" I mean they are just my friends. Going to the gym isn't considered a date and it's not considered dating or liking someone. It is considered going to the gym working out your body and coming home..ALONE. Why must you all make things so complicated for me. It seems my only safe haven is music and I can't even listen to that anymore without you coming in telling me to either turn it down or get off the computer because you have things to do. Why must I be treated like a child. I'm always in the wrong, always guilty and it will forever be my fault. Want to know why readers...because I am the only girl in this family ANDDDD I just happen to be the middle child. Ridiculous. This is a fiasco beyond my wildest dreams. I just want to go to the gym. I get a thousand questions and accusations thrown my way. What a world. I do honor you and your decisions and I say yes mam or sir and go on with my life..with a little disappointment and groveling. Why do you have to be so strict. Why can't it just be ok we trust you and that is that. NOOOO it could never be that easy. OH my golly G I wish we could just rush to abuot 630 and I could get ready to go see my friends in Miss LE. but knowing this predicament I am stuck in, the day will crawl along with me sitting sulking wishing I had something to do. Oh how I despise being the middle child and only daughter in this house.
Well I am getting the beckon call to get off and go do something with my life..so since I can't go to the gym I will just to P90X HA LU-POL!

BOOYA mother and fatherrrrr!!
well i'm going to work out by myself since i am not aloud to go to the gym

that was my whining for the day.
tooda loo

Can I get ahh uhmm hmmm urghhh an amazing blue coconut slush

How I love the weekends. My big brother is home and I'm just sitting around with him and Eli. I love these guys quite alot. They pretty much make my days amazing. Well I'm in a great mood..and i can't sleep. i have had an amazing week and i plan to continue it through the weekend. Tomorrow I'm going to see Vic at Miss LE and then i'm gonna go hang with some friends. Oh wowy I have nothing to write about so yeah thats about all. haha i'm off to watch law abiding citizen

Rainbows Unicorns and Precal!

Betrayal, Heartache and Anguish. The things that have just been on my mind. I feel betrayed by friends, which brings me heartache. And anguish well it means being distressed or in other words a big word for upset. I am normally a happy person however with all the betrayal and heartache anguish describes my feelings towards Lugoff Elgin High and its inhabitants. I usually dont have drama but lately with the things that people have been throwing at me I've been gettin a few bits of it. RIDICULOUS!!!!! Oh well you know life goes on and I'll be leaving soon. This is definitely a much different attitude from the last blog but things have changed since then. I feel as though I should just not rely on anyone but God because he will never betray me or give me heartache. He will actually make it all better. Well let us see...what else have I been contemplating on.....hmmm
Well I seem to get injured every practice and it is getting quite depressing. I really am afraid that I'm going to get hurt so bad I'll be out for the season...DEF not letting that happen. Another random thing that is on this mind of mine is that my big bro is coming home tomorrow :) YAY! I can't wait to spend some time with him. I have also been thinking about how music is AWESOME. I knew it was pretty extraordinary before but lately it's been pretty awesome. Oh yeah and just like two point 5 seconds ago my boyfriend called..HAPPY HALF A YEAR baby :) i love you! He pretty much just made my night. I love that fool :) <3 I would also like to throw a "SHOUT OUT" to my track girls. I am beyond proud of you. I love you all and can not wait to make a bond with all of you. :) hmmm Idk what it is about Wesley aka my amazing boyfriend but just hearing his voice turned my sad mood to a happy mood. Golly what a great bf :) haha
So today at track I pulled my hamstring. Not a good feeling I might add and I went to the trainer and well Chanon Dowey I owe you everything you're amazing LOVE YOU BOOBOO! haha
Gosh I'm quite happy this ended on a happy note....btw I am NOT bipolor just have an amazing boyfriend :) <3 Hope you all have a blessed day well night haha

GOODNIGHT <333

In Christ
Kelli (:

It's you and me against the world.

So lately I have been thinking about my "future" and what's going to happen once I graduate. What is going to happen? Am I going to just all the sudden be considered an adult and left out to dry. What will happen. Of course I will be going to college but on my own? What will I do without my mom?! I have had so much on my mind. Just being alone with no one there and my friends that I'm leaving. Lately this song Stuttering by Fefe Dobson has been kinda my song I guess. This transition in my life will show me who is really a friend and a person I can keep in my life. I'm just worried that the people I love the most will be the ones to let me down first. what a sad thought. I just shudder at the fact that I am leaving my best friend of 4 years Kelly here and it will be a piece of my heart gone. She has been there for me through so much I just don't know how it will be when I leave my non-related sister. And then I leave my bestest friend, the one who has been there for me lately the one who I can laugh with and just be silly my amazing friend Victoria McElveen. I think I will miss her a ton. I will miss just hanging whenever we want and talking about whatever and just being there for each other. She is like the sister in Christ that I have needed in my life for so long and is such a blessing to me. Leaving my boyfriend will be the hardest task of all. He is the one person who knows me inside and out, loves me for me and would be here in a heart beat if I needed him. Wesley is one of the most amazing person ever. He is so loving and it will be so hard to say goodbye. He has been there for me through a lot. He has seen me in some tough times and has helped me through them all. I'm glad I have a cellphone and computer because I will by skyping all these people and calling them daily :) haha I love my friends and family with all of my being and I know that God will strengthen me in everything I do.
John 3:30 says "He must increase and we must decrease" this verse has been the rock I have leaned on lately. God must increase and I must decrease, I must set all the petty things aside and fall to my knees and pray. These past few weeks I have just been hit with so much on my heart and all that I can do is cry and fall to my knees and pray. I feel that everything that I have on my heart can be fixed in a matter of seconds in the hands of God but being the stubborn person I am...I want to try and fix it first. This is such a wrong strategy. I really need to work on my heart. Last Wednesday at church Kevin was talking about the 10 plagues and how they could have all been stopped in the blink of an eye. But Pharaohs heart had been hardened to the point of hate. I feel that my heart started to get hardened and I need to let God take control and just give it all to him.
Well thanks for listening or reading I might say..prayers are welcome. :)

In Christ
Kelli